the luckiest

i came home from work to a husband folding 342,394 loads of laundry AND putting them all away. then an amazing 9 year old who made me dinner with her own dessert of tootsie rolls {my favorite} jagger was running around the house and baby sis sat all by her big 6 month old self watching her brother run like a crazy kid. it all hit me at once. i couldn't be luckier or more blessed than i am now. now if summer would hurry it would more than ok with me ;)



so many times throughout the day i tell myself- i don't ever want to forget this moment. today baby sis fell asleep in my arms after eating and i just stared at her. she woke up like she knew i was right there looking at her and smiled. it melted me. we just looked at each other for a couple of minutes and it was like time stood still. these are the moments in life that make the craziness all worth it.

 i am so blessed.

i need to remind myself this on an hourly basis. 2013 was so good to us and i hope 2014 will be just the same. but a little more mellow ;) i could use some calmness in my life. it's just go go go. when it gets overwhelming i need to look back at times like these.

this mama's heart is happy.


thankful days

i can't sleep. if you know me, then you know this is rare and i will be cranky tomorrow so watch out ;)

i am thankful for modern medicine. i have been having awful pain for months now in my baby maker area. i went into my doctor and he did an ultrasound and long story short i had to get surgery. surgery went great yesterday!! my tube had been taken out years ago from a tubal pregnancy i had. over the years it started to grow into my uterine lining. i am so happy they just figured out what was wrong and now i won't be in pain- yay!!

i am also more than thankful and blessed to have such an amazing babysitter for my littles. they love her so much they even have just adapted to calling her grandma :) she watched elliott for the first time yesterday and even if she did cry for her and wasn't the easiest i got home from the hospital crashed out and woke up at midnight to a text- 'thank you for sharing elliott with us today' it made my heart so happy. she genuinely loves my kids and treats them as her own. we love love our daycare family!! thank you grandma kerri for everything, love you!!


thankful day 6

my bathtub. it sounds so dumb but it is my escape from real life at the end of every day. three kids rocks my world and i look forward to my bath every night. when ry and i were first house shopping i fell in love with this model because of the master bathroom. it's amazing. 

there's nothing better than siting in a hot bath to relax at the end of the day. and chances are if we're talking and it's dark outside + past 9, i'm in the bath ;)

thankful 3+4+5

i have the worst add. i swear i think a million thoughts per second and have so many things i want to do in a day. but then when i go to do it- my brain is mush. i blame the 3 errr 4 kids { if you count my husband. which i do } i have this desire to always blog more. looking back there is nothing i love seeing more than the progress my - not so little anymore- family has made. so, here's to thought 487493 of the day. i am going to blog more!!

day 3-- my house. guys, i really really love my house. we loved building it and even more so love our neighbors and that we live in a circle. i love that there is always something to do or somewhere for te kids to go play. the whole basement is just theirs to do whatever they want. kennedy loves loves doing gymnastics down there on the extra carpet we've put into pieces ;) with all 14 boxes of toys they've accumulated over the years it's never a dull moment. one day- soon- i am going to go get huge toy boxes and just line the walls up down there. it will be a little kids heaven, just more organized for mamas sanity ;) 

day 4-- my sister. we didn't always get along growing up. in fact we mostly hated each other and fought over clothes every. single. day. we have grown up and grown together. i can't imagine my life without her. she is always there when i need her and even when i am bored i know i always have a shopping partner ;) i love that she just gets me. there is no one that is better to my kids. seeing her as an aunt is my favorite. i told her she can never have kids because she won't buy mine as much anymore ;)

day 5-- saturday mornings. our weeks are so dang busy and i probably see ryan a total of 2 hours all week. graves can suck it. he jokes and says it's probably why we're still married and so happy ;) saturday mornings he almost always wakes up before us- takes the baby - and makes is all breakfast. if i am still asleep, without fail he will bring me breakfast in bed. then we all just lounge and play. they go too fast and before we know it sunday night is here and he's off to work again. it's the little things 




day two. 
i am thankful for friends. true and honest friends that have always been there for me no matter what. 

the ones who i see almost everyday and the ones who i only see once every couple of months but yet still are there  i am so lucky and grateful for each and every one :) 


elle bell

12 week loves: 
her mama
the boobies {seriously though. the girl would nurse all day if i let her}
to be swaddled
short little cat naps
only waking up maybe once a night. sometimes she sleeps all night long
bath time 
her big sis and bruddah
staring at herself in the mirror

12 week hates:
driving in the car. she literally screams the whole time. every. single. time 
being left alone for too long
her baba- she will take one if she gets hungry enough but definitely loves the boobie ;)
a binky. we've tried every kind. she just hates them

she is seriously the best. when she gets tired she will fuss and rub her eyes. ive created a monster by nursing her to sleep even for naps. it makes it hard for daddy to watch her. whoopsies! 
how does 12 weeks go by so fast? 
we're in for a fun weekend- friends, family, and a whole lot of halloween activities!! 


then there were 5

we got our family pictures done. i was a stressed out basket case. they were at 9 am out at the salt flats. trying to get 3 kids and a husband + myself all ready that early was cra-zay. the whole drive there i felt like we were forgetting something. then when we did get there my naughty word 3 year old was awful. he wouldn't pose, look, or even talk back to brooke when she would try and talk to him. and it was only like 50 degrees outside with crazy winds. once we were done we drove off and i was so bummed i felt like we weren't going to even get that one shot i have had invisioned in my head since we found out we were pregnant with elliott. an hour after our absolutely amazing photographer sent me these two. 

i cried. 

honestly it made my heart stop for just a second. it was us. the five. captured the exact way i had wanted for so long. if you need a photographer you have to go to brooke- blush photography. it's worth every penny. the pictures she has taken of us over the past years i will cherish forever. 

my whole wide world in one picture 
love- the five. 



i love the fall.
probably just as much as everyone else ;)
i hope it lasts longer than 3 days before winter comes in for 8 months.

and i really should cut back on the pumpkin spice latte addiction.
that much money a month on just coffee is ridiculous. haha!

baby sis is already over 2 months old. i'm not quite sure how that happened so fast?
it's unreal to me how fast time can go.

sometimes in life there are events that happen that make you take a step back and look at things in a different perspective. i know i say it all the time. but i couldn't be more grateful and blessed for where i am now in my life.


oh darling

baby sis-
i am completely smitten by you.
you couldn't be more perfect.
i hope you never grow up.

as i sit and watch you sleep- miss taylor swift says- never grow up
your little hands wrapped around my finger
and it's so quiet in the world tonight
your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreamin
oh darling don't you ever grow up
just stay this little
don't you ever grow up
it could stay this simple
i won't let nobody hurt you
just try to never grow up

i say it all the time. but really.
my heart is so full with my three babies.