then there were 5

we got our family pictures done. i was a stressed out basket case. they were at 9 am out at the salt flats. trying to get 3 kids and a husband + myself all ready that early was cra-zay. the whole drive there i felt like we were forgetting something. then when we did get there my naughty word 3 year old was awful. he wouldn't pose, look, or even talk back to brooke when she would try and talk to him. and it was only like 50 degrees outside with crazy winds. once we were done we drove off and i was so bummed i felt like we weren't going to even get that one shot i have had invisioned in my head since we found out we were pregnant with elliott. an hour after our absolutely amazing photographer sent me these two. 

i cried. 

honestly it made my heart stop for just a second. it was us. the five. captured the exact way i had wanted for so long. if you need a photographer you have to go to brooke- blush photography. it's worth every penny. the pictures she has taken of us over the past years i will cherish forever. 

my whole wide world in one picture 

love- the five. 

fall!!

i love the fall.
probably just as much as everyone else ;)
i hope it lasts longer than 3 days before winter comes in for 8 months.

and i really should cut back on the pumpkin spice latte addiction.
that much money a month on just coffee is ridiculous. haha!

baby sis is already over 2 months old. i'm not quite sure how that happened so fast?
it's unreal to me how fast time can go.

sometimes in life there are events that happen that make you take a step back and look at things in a different perspective. i know i say it all the time. but i couldn't be more grateful and blessed for where i am now in my life.
one.lucky.girl.

oh darling

baby sis-

i am completely smitten by you.

you couldn't be more perfect.

i hope you never grow up.

as i sit and watch you sleep- miss taylor swift says- never grow up

your little hands wrapped around my finger

and it's so quiet in the world tonight

your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreamin

oh darling don't you ever grow up

just stay this little

don't you ever grow up

it could stay this simple

i won't let nobody hurt you

just try to never grow up

i say it all the time. but really.

my heart is so full with my three babies.

love.

heavy heart

tomorrow is the day. the first time i will go 5 straight hours without seeing elle. 

i think im ready. 

i ve got this.

maybe. 

i do feel so blessed to have my amazing job and absolutely adore the girls I work with. that's what will get me through. and honestly- it will be a nice break and alone time. right? right. 

but damn, i'm going to miss seeing this perfect face all day long. 

love. 

7 weeks in pictures

some of my absolute favorite pictures from the last 7 weeks since baby sister has been here :)

the first time big brother and sister held baby sis is indescribable.

my brothers cute girlfriend had them make a canvas print of their hands and a little saying of how much they loved her already. i die. 

it was the sweetest.

there is nothing quite like that moment when i saw them meeting her. 

{ my life in one little picture }

my sister and i went with my dad to an officers funeral

it was so hard to see his sweet wife and son.

i am so grateful for my dad going to work every day and coming home safe.

growing up it's something you just expected.

life is so short and can be taken from you in an instant.

that day definitely made me realize how lucky i am.

baby sis and i have had lots of cuddle sessions. 

they're the best.

she has the biggest eyes when she's wide awake.

we call her bugsy. 

from adam sandlers move- bedtime stories.

they look just like her brothers ;)

'mama! hers looks at this when i move it!'

i love seeing these two together.

elliott loves her uncle connor.

is there anything more sweet than a sleeping baby?

nope.

life these days

it's crazy

exhausting

and overwhelming all at the same time. 

but i wouldn't change it for the world. my kids are my life. 

ry works graves and has been so dang busy he's been doing 12 hour shifts 6 days a week. luckily i have amazing friends and family for support and help with the littles when i have those- i feel like a single mom of 3 crazy kids- moments ;) 

going back to work is going to be a good break from the full time stay at home mama job. honestly I am looking forward to it. my schedule will be perfect- just mondays wednesdays and fridays { super part time ;) }

i can't wait to see my patients and tell everyone all about sweet baby elle.

i do feel so blessed to have a job i truly love. the girls that i work with make it that much more amazing. 

life is so good to us right now. 

we couldn't be more grateful. 

i really am going to try this blogging thing more. if i don't I know that i'll regret it later!!  

love. 

this is one of my favorite pictures i have of me and elle. every time i look at it i swear my heart melts into a giant puddle  

bear lake 2013

bear lake is seriously my heaven on earth. it is my favorite place we go every summer. it's always bitter sweet because it marks the end of summer for us but yet we always have so much fun. this year my cute cousins { who are pregnant!!- yay!! }  and their little boy came up with us! 

we ate

we swam

we beached ourselves and soaked in the sun

we boated and tubed

we had camp fires every night

and we played in the crazy rain storm that hit us

we watched the little kiddos have even more fun than we were having

and then we ate again ;)

and laughed until our stomachs hurt.

and baby sis did so good!! i was a little nervous about taking a 3 week old but she is seriously the best baby and was amazing the whole time.

{ baby sis only wakes up once a night. i tell you she is straight from heaven ;) }

bear lake was so good to us this year.

until next time...

chelsey.caleigh.me.sydney

i'm pretty sure i had to bribe him with something for this picture. 

he didn't hold still for more than 1 second the whole time

auntie cal and baby elle taking a nap in the most comfy camping chair.

i don't know who liked it more ;)

she melts me

mmmmmm.

naps on the beach- does it get better? 

nah.

elliott jean

i can't sleep. i am on cloud 9 staring at this perfect baby girl. i don't know how i got  so lucky to be her mama. ugh she is amazing. by far the easiest pregnancy and labor. ever. welcome to the family baby girl. love love love you.

{ 7 pounds 8 ounces of complete perfection }

20 inches

1:02 pm

elliott.jean.damico

with love-

ryan.chels.big sister kennedy. and big bruddah jaggoh

her birth story is below :)

8.3.13

my mom, sister, ryan, and i got to the hospital this morning at 7:30. our cute nurse showed us to our labor and delivery room. from the moment we got there it started to feel so surreal. the moment we've all been waiting for, for over 9 months was finally here. i changed into my uber cute hospital gown and hung out in the bed until around 8 when the nurse came back in to hook me up to the monitors, check all my vitals, and see how far i had progressed and where i was dialated to. i was still at a 4 and 80% effaced since my last appointment i had on thursdsay. my doctors partner had come in the room shortly after and said he wanted to break my water. i am that patient that is such a baby when it comes to my pain tolerance. i told him we would all be better off if we waited to start the pitocin and break my water until after my epidural. thankfully he was totally fine with that ;) the anesthesiologist came in shortly after and i got the epi. it was a little piece of heaven. i immediately felt so much better {not that i was even in a ton of pain, but when your back has been killing you for the last month every single day, it was amazing} the doctor came in around 9:30/10 and broke my water then started the pitocin. it is the best feeling to watch the monitor and see those massive contractions and not be able to feel them at all!! the nurse checked me and i was still at a 4. my dad and cydney got there right after 10. we all talked, laughed, and hung out until a little after noon. my amazing nurse came in to check me and i was at a 5+. progress! she said that we just jumpstarted labor and it might take a little bit. i just always go so fast once those contractions start so i knew she wasn't far from coming ;)

a little bit before 1 she came in to check me again and holy moses i was totally dialated and effaced with baby girl stationed at a 2+. she started to set up the room, called my doctor, and the other head nurse to get this baby out ;) my doctor was 5 minutes away. i had my mom on my left side holding my leg and cydney on the right side holding the other one. poor caleigh had the total intentions the whole pregnancy to be there, watch it all and cut baby's cord. right before i was totally dilated caleigh said she was feeling queasy. haha!

i had put my legs up with my mom and sister holding each leg and my cute nurse lifted up the blanket and yelled. not just a little squeal, full on yelled. she goes- 'ahhh we have a head!! you need to push!' it was so so crazy. she had caleigh run out and grab the head nurse from the nurses station. i literally had 2 seconds to try and grab my legs and i lifted my arms up to grab them and saw baby elliott already out. i didn't even push. we were all in SO much shock. i couldn't have even imagined an easier labor. i am so lucky i had such an amazing nurse there to deliver her. my doctor made it in and was so sad she had missed it.

this baby has made our family complete. we are so in love with her and can't imagine life without her.

elliott- i hope how amazingly easy my pregnancy and labor was with you is a sign of how good you're going to be ;)

it's amazing how fast you can fall in love with someone you don't even know- yet you feel like you've known forever. we love you baby girl. thank you for bringing a little piece of heaven along with you

xo
your mama

the bump

 i can't believe we now only have less than 2 weeks. eeeep!! 

as long as my car seat comes before baby sis does, we are {for the most part} all ready! i am so excited to meet her. i want to know what she looks like. i want to know what her little cry is going to sound like. i can't wait to see if she has hair and if she will love binkys like her big sister did or if she'll want nothing to do with them like her big brother. 

i hope this next week and a half fly by!!

this picture is from the amazing shower my friends and sister threw for me. i will post the link to the bests blog and you can read all about it. 

through everything i can say i am one blessed girl with amazing friends and family :)